I am 36 years old and I am a single mother of 3 boys (9, 17,18) and I am in the Air National Guard. I do any all that I can for my children but we have been delt a bad hand to play. I can't seen to get bill paid and no one will give me a loan becaue of my credit. Trying to put my oldest son thorough college and assist with all the needs of a senior in high school  couldn't be more difficult and I can't forget about my 9 yearold who doesn't require much but he too has needs.

In Marchof 2003 I was deployed overseas for 5 1/2 months to serve my counrty and I couldn't have been more proud. With my family supporting me I was well on my way. Upon my return in late July I was just settling in back home doing school shopping for the kids and looking for a job because the unit could no longer employ me, when we had a most tragic incidernt (a house fire). The first week of school had ended and my boys had two of their fiends over for the weekend. My mother was still staying at my house helping me out because she stayed with my kids while I was away. At about 3am on Sunday morning something woke me out of my sleep, when I opened my eyes I could see fire in the kichen and the computer room. Me and my youngest two boys were sleeping in the living room and my oldest was in his room in the back next door to my room where my mom slept and their friends were alseep in my middle son's bedroom. I yelled and screamed and woke my two boys that were in the room with me and we went out of the front and their firends responded to me and were able to wake my mom and my oldest son and they were all able to make it out of the back of the house. When the fire trucks arrived it was too late, all was lost nothing could be saved. We found out later that it was a electrical mishap something that we couldn't have prevented.

We recieved a lot of support and the blessing is just knowing that we all made it out alive. Every since that night we have been playing catchup and at the same time falling further and further behind. I never realized that starting over woud be that hard. It's been 3 years and it's struggle week after week and payday after payday. We live paycheck to almost paycheck and bills get further and further behind. I made a sacfrifice to take a job in Florida and leave my boys with mom until I got on my feet and provide her with whatever is needed for them and I believe it's only gotten worse for all of us.

All I want is for one bank to give me a loan of $10,000, but with my credit history I can't even get a piece of bubble gum on credit. I know that with this amount of money I could catch up and pay off my bills and we could finally see the light. I know that my credit history doesn't look good but if I had the money I would have enough that things would be paid off and it would be no reason after being caught up that I couldn't pay them back. I tried using the Personal Loan people for payday loans hoping that would be a way but it only made things worse and I will never get out of dept with them, and tat was their plan along. All I need is a chance to prove to someone that I can be trusted;  just give me chance.

It's the holiday season and I right now I don't how I can even travel home to my mom and boys for Thanksgiving.  Please help me find someone that can help me through this trying time in our lives.

Thanking You for Your Eyes and Ears,

Dionne A Bennett and Family